Bachelor in Paradise Episode 9

I have to say, I could barely stomach this episode. It was so sickening to watch, especially the beginning. I KNOW it’s a reality TV show, I KNOW it is and I KNOW that a lot of situations are manipulated to create drama and storylines, but I’m telling you Ashley’s whole “persona” on TV is just sickening to me. Like how much of it is really scripted and how much of it can be edited? Her persona on TV is disgusting and sickening to me and almost slimy; it makes my stomach turn. I can’t believe she tried to play the poor me, please pity me card, I’m just trying to protect you ploy with Jared. I wanted to skip it so badly, but I couldn’t because I needed to see what actually happened. I know we don’t get a lot of what goes on in paradise and I lot is cut out, but from what I see, it’s just disgusting. Also calling someone “Euro trash” and a bitch a whore while saying that you’re the better person and all of this stuff just shows how insecure you really are in your own skin and that you enjoy bringing others down behind their backs. That doesn’t show you being more mature, that shows so much immaturity that it’s slimy to watch. Regardless, I am glad that Caila left the drama and in all honesty I would’ve too. I don’t know why in your right mind you would think she NEEDS the attention when she just left and you’re still on practically begging for attention with your please pity me boo hoo card, but whatever floats your boat. (People may think that I am biased, but really I’m not, I’m simply speaking what I think and if you don’t like it well then don’t read what I write, it’s as simple as that).

With that being said, Lauren Himle and Shushanna from Ben’s season come and go on a double date with Brett and Wells who just went on a date with Jami the day before and went on a date with Ashley a few days ago. Ashley is trying to seem mature and sane, but it’s not really working in my eyes. The date seems to go really well for the ladies; not much to say there except I’m glad they’re getting an opportunity to experience paradise and be happy because I like these girls.

Amanda and Josh also get a date and reaffirm their feelings for one another due to the whole Nick vs Josh situation from the night before with the twins leaving. Can’t say much else about that.

The girls are pretty much left to fight for their “men’s” time, especially with Wells since Jami (The Canadian), Ashley, and Shushanna (a random hooker) all went on a date with him. That’s all for today really. I don’t have much to say about the episode since that’s literally all that happened. However, I’ll leave on this note:

Reiterating what I said earlier, I know that we’re missing so much to what we’ve already seen on paradise because why would the producers let us watch every single footage they have, right? That would not only take hours, but sort of be a waste of time. I mean there are some pieces that we need to complete the puzzle, but I mean they show what they want. With the whole Ashley, Caila, and Jared situation, Ashley should’ve just said her two cents and then left them alone. If Caila wasn’t right for Jared in the end, he would’ve made that decision for himself and not needed you to be there for him claiming that you’re protecting him. Yeah right, you’re doing it for yourself. Any who, he would’ve realized it sooner or later so you should’ve just left it at that. Instead you literally go attacking the poor girl mentally and behind her back on TV and then you go attacking every other girl you’re intimidated by. That doesn’t really say much about your character in person (although I know that she’s smarter than she’s portrayed). I know people have different personalities, but with that being said, what you see on TV is sort of what you get in person in some ways. Also, attacking Caila on social media and TV and practically bullying her like that is so disgusting and despicable. Honestly, if I were Caila I would’ve left and if she wasn’t that interested in Jared before, I mean who would want all of that baggage following them around literally attacking them and breathing down their necks? No one. I don’t blame her at all if she wasn’t that interested. Also, Caila totally did not break girl code because they weren’t even considered “friends,” outside of the show, more like acquaintances and it was not cool of Ashley to manipulate her and pretty much tell her how to act on paradise if she were to go on paradise. Anyway, sorry for the long rant, but that’s what I have to say on that. See y’all next time and enjoy!



You’re Beautiful

Everyone is beautiful. Of course there are times when we think others are “ugly,” because of how they act or even because of their physical appearance. However, everyone has some beauty in them no matter what. Sometimes they’re only meant for some to see. I mean if the world were perfect, everyone would be friends with one another and everyone would think that everyone is gorgeous inside and out, but that’s not the case is it? There is beauty in everyone, physically or internally. It doesn’t matter what others think because in the end, you’re the only one who actually decides whether or not you’re beautiful. Thinking and believing you’re beautiful will help you BE beautiful. If someone else says you’re ugly, why should you believe them? Your thoughts are the only thing that actually matter because they are what push you to be who you are. Don’t allow others to put a damper to your loveliness or self-confidence. As long as you know who you are, who cares what others think? Beauty is in the eyes of the be-holder after all. You are that be-holder.

Bachelor in Paradise Episode 8

Looks like everyone’s really praying for a miracle today. A miracle that will SOMEHOW help Ashley get over Jared and stop with her incessant crying. I’m with them and praying for it too because I honestly cannot stand the sounds of torture anymore, just PLEASE bring someone in. PLEASE.


Well, well,wells. YES, Finally a guy who actually catches Ashley’s interest. Like how long did that take?? I understand being picky, but I felt like she was just very, VERY unwilling to let go of her grudge against Caila and her feelings for Jared and focus on herself and finding a guy she’s interested in. But thankfully, Wells came in and swooped her off her misery, literally. Everyone started clapping and cheering because FINALLY, it’s over and she can move on and everyone else can stop walking around eggshells and trying to comfort her. Thank goodness.


Caila and Jared are very obviously happy, as they should be. They can FINALLY move forward in their relationship without feeling like they have to be holding back. They’re so cute together not dealing with all the drama. Omg, I’m smiling just from watching them.

Wells and Ashley go on their date and talk about the bands they enjoy and dogs. They light a lantern and it goes up in flames, literally (I wonder if that’s a sign Hmm…) Honestly, I sort of skipped this part because I wasn’t too interested in watching it. I know that’s all they did on the date though, so moving on…

Grace are having trouble in paradise because Lace keeps flirting with other guys. I feel like she’s just worried that everything is too good to be true, like Amanda said and that she doesn’t deserve the good things that are happening to her. In all honesty, I think that everyone deserves to find love and happiness; however, the tactics that she’s using are so juvenile and childish, just very immature. It’s something that I would do right now because I’m not ready for anything. I think that she’s not ready for a real relationship and in my opinion and should have waited a bit to find herself and figure things out for herself. You can’t really be with someone until you have found yourself and you know yourself. (Sorry guys, I admit I can be real opinionated sometimes lol). Anyways, Grace get into a huge argument, but eventually make up. Aw, I don’t know if this is good news or bad news…

Meanwhile, Josh is being a huge douche, honestly he is. I didn’t even read Andi’s book or watch Andi’s season, but the way he’s acting towards Jen and Nick like oh, we called dibs on the boom boom room is so immature and not attractive at all. Anyone can sleep there and if Amanda doesn’t want to sleep in the same bed with you tonight or doesn’t want to sleep in the room with you tonight, then deal with it! Don’t act like such a child about it and throw a hissy fit. Y’all can sleep in a different bed anyway. Ugh, his actions are disgusting me more and more each episode. He even got into a little argument with Nick about it. Just ugh.

Cocktail party time and rose ceremony time:

Grace solidify their relationship once more and Carly and Evan tell each other that they love each other. Carly can’t believe it because she’s falling for the penis man. Who would’ve thought huh?

Daniel knows he’s on the chopping block and is doing anything he can to stay. He brings food to Haley and a CANADIAN lamp to Izzy because apparently Izzy likes lamps… Brett apparently brought a 60 watt lamp though so that beats Daniels…?

Josh and Amanda are falling in love with each other, which the Twins think is very concerning because they don’t know enough about Josh and are worried about his temper. They ask Nick what they think about him and Nick tells them about what happened with the bed issue the night before and of course brings up Andi’s book once again, telling them that it can’t all be fictional.

Now, for the rose ceremony (ladies night):

Carly to Evan

Ashley to Wells

Jen to Nick

Izzy to Brett

Caila to Jared

Lace to Grant

Amanda to Josh (who cannot stop kissing Amanda, just please stop)

Haley… and Emily to… No one because they don’t feel those sparks, that connection. That means that Ryan, Daniel, and Carl are all leaving rose-less this week as well. Before leaving though, they pull Amanda aside and tell her their concerns and then leave before any repercussions could come. Naturally, Amanda tells Josh and he starts going off and getting all pissed off. Josh calls everyone down and pretty much goes off on all of them. The thing is, I think he’s slick and I agree with everything everyone said before about him. It looks like he’s practiced what to say, especially since he just had his character talked about in a book. I can’t really be a great judge because I don’t know HIM, but when you have your best friends tell you to not trust him and to be cautious and you have A LOT of other people tell you the same thing, shouldn’t you really heed their warnings and think twice…? Once again, Josh goes off and says stop talking behind my back, but no one really is… The Twins wanted to talk to Nick about their concerns and that’s that. They wanted their friend to feel and be safe and be sure about her decision.. In all honesty, yes the topic is you, but it doesn’t really actually concern you. The moment that Nick tells Josh that everything written about himself is true, Josh becomes all quiet and stops arguing. Josh is ready to leave, but Amanda wants to stay with him and wants to stop listening to everyone. I mean it’s up to you. All the best of luck to you dear.

Jami arrives in paradise, but everyone is still sleeping and only Wells is awake.

“Chad has come and murdered everyone and  only Wells is left.”-Wells LOL, that is freaking hilarious.

Jami opens her date card and decides to ask out Wells (not sure if it’s because he’s the only one here or if it’s because she wanted to) Seems like she actually wanted to meet him, so who knows. Ashley is still asleep (thank goodness) so no one has to deal with her incessant crying YET.

Like Jorge says, “Early bird catches the worm.” (Jami)

Surprisingly, Ashley is not at all worried about Wells going on the date with Jami and is actually really calm about it. Everyone was waiting for the explosion to happen, but it didn’t happen. Instead… She decides to go talk to Jared… what the freak…? I swear Ashley is just going backwards because once again we hear her thoughts on how it’s a nightmare seeing Jared and Caila get closer blah blah blah. She isn’t moving on at all and I know it takes time but right now it’s just annoying.

Caila and Ashley have another conversation and Ashley once again keeps telling her how she has doubts blah blah. Caila is pretty fed up with how she’s being treated and how people are just listening to Ashley when they don’t really know her at all. They weren’t really friends, more like acquaintances before the show any who, so Caila isn’t backstabbing anyone. She really doesn’t need or want the attention (YES GIRL!) so she wants to leave paradise now too.

I know that this is a reality TV show and producers do push and nudge people and storylines in certain directions, but this is just a stupid storyline now and I don’t know why they can’t let Jared and Caila be. Like Ashley, move on and don’t tell people not to make out in front of you because it will happen anyway. I don’t know her and her personality and can’t say anything at all really, but from my perspective, it’s just so immature and juvenile what she’s doing for her own happiness. It’s very selfish of her and for her to be calling someone a backstabbing whore all the time while saying she’s the best doesn’t look that much better. I know people are defending her, but it’s not ok for y’all to be calling Caila a whore and b**** either. It’s not ok for y’all to bully either of them and before y’all go off on me for being “hypocritical,” I’m simply stating what I see and what I think, not defaming anyone’s image. If I were Caila, I’d honestly leave too because it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks in the end, I’d just want the person I’m spending time with to have their own viewpoint about me (which is what Amanda is doing and I respect that and all the best to her). Anyway, that’s all for this episode. See y’all next time!

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The Rocker that Holds Her (The Rocker #5) by Terri Anne Browning

The Rocker That Holds Her (The Rocker, #5)The Rocker That Holds Her by Terri Anne Browning

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

After reading The Rocker that Holds Me (The Rocker #1), I was curious and intrigued by Nik and wanted to know more about him. From the little snippets that were written in the first book, I wasn’t really sure what to think of him and so I didn’t really form a detailed nor succinct opinion on his character yet. To satisfy my curiosity, I decided that “what the heck,” I should just read it and see how the book is. It wouldn’t hurt to try right?

I did just that and I have to say, i was left a very satisfied and happy reader. i actually ended up enjoying this one more than the first one because although I love Emmie, i was left wanting more, wanting to learn and know more. This book did just that by giving a little bit of dual POV, though most of the scenes were through Nik’s POV. I can now say that I freaking love Nik. This gave me so much more insight on him and how he was feeling throughout the first book that I read. This wasn’t a redundant story just giving us what most of the first book was about, but it gave us a look into Nik’s life, how he met Emmie and how Demon’s Wings came to be along with his feelings for Emmie. We also get a little bit of a closer view into the other members’ lives like Drake, Shane, and Jesse and their personalities. After this book, I really do love Nik. I’m not much of a sucker for a cheesy, guy in all honesty, but he was such a sweetheart. He wasn’t cheesy at all, he was so sweet and cared so much about Emmie, agh, I need a man like that in my life (lol).

Although this story did start in the beginning from when Emmie met the guys, it wasn’t a verbatim retelling of Emmie’s story, it was all in Nik’s POV, like I said so you receive a different feel from it. I got more from it than I did from Emmie’s because now I don’t question Nik’s motives or feelings for her, I understand him and where he is coming from. Even though it was sort of annoying what Emmie was doing in this book, I’m glad that she got over things and tried to understand Nik’s feelings and Nik didn’t jump to conclusions and tried to understand where she was coming from with her responses. It was sweet, the way that they actually tried to overcome their barriers instead of letting their barriers overcome them and their relationship.

The barriers in relationships are what you both have to venture through in order to find what you’re looking for. If not, you will end up getting the short end of the stick and won’t be able to find the happiness and answers that you’re looking for. Take that risk and leap through the barriers, only then will you find each other.

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Idol (VIP #1) by Kristen Callihan

Idol (VIP, #1)Idol by Kristen Callihan

My rating: 5 of 5 stars


“I’d say kissing her is like coming home, but I’ve never had a true home. I don’t know if the sense of rightness I feel with her means home or not. Right now it’s something stronger, tinged with desperation. I’m desperate for her. “

Oh my goodness. Oh my. Literally, that’s all I can say about this book because it was one of the best books that I’ve read this summer I’ve had reader’s block. Also, yes, my lovely readers, I have read a book about another rock star/musician. I can’t help it, I’ve got an addiction to sexy rock stars/musicians at the moment, so sue me.

Anyway, Liberty (Libby) Bell has lived a majority of her life in isolation, hidden away from the wonders and depravity of the world. Killian Jones on the other hand has lived life differently, being in the spotlight and experiencing all of the wonders and depravity that the world has to give. Somehow, fate brings these two unlikely characters together to see what type of music they can make together in the world.

This is a book in which I didn’t really hate any character which is a first for me considering there’s always that one person you want to hate in a book. I know I’m being redundant now, but Libby is one of my favorite female characters because she literally didn’t take any crap from anyone. She was a fireball who showed didn’t care what others thought of her and didn’t care what she really said to them. She just said what she thought of the situation and had comebacks for everything.

Killian, I honestly thought he was going to be a typical rocker at first. One who is alpha male, dominant, wants everything to go his way because he’s used to everything going his way. I was sure wrong on that front because he was anything but any of things. Yes he was dominant at times and alpha male, but he cared for others, he showed others that he cared, and he wasn’t spoiled. He had a tortured, pained side to him and it was refreshing reading about that. He just wanted what was best for everyone, shouldering everything from everyone because he didn’t want them to feel that pain or sadness. When he wasn’t doing that, he was being his sexy, sexy confident self which is what I love in a male character. All I can say is, I need me a Killian. What a babe.

When I first started reading it, I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to finish it because I was afraid it was going to be like many other rock star books I’ve read. However, I was pleasantly surprised by how different it was. Libby and Killian went through their fair share of hardships with their relationship, but I’m glad they didn’t really give up right away and actually tried to understand each other. They didn’t let misunderstandings get in the way. Both were more mature and respectful towards one another and I loved that. Usually, one person does something and the other misunderstands, but they stuck by one another and Libby wasn’t a weepy female character trying to have everyone take care of her and she made sure of that. All of the other characters, Whip, Rye, Scottie, and Jax all have their issues, but they were awesome as well. Gotta say though, I LOVED Brenna. She was a great voice of reason for both Killian and Libby, she said what needed to be said and helped them through whatever they needed.

And don’t get me started on the sex scenes. Oh my goodness, I felt like I needed a fan or a cold shower or something because they were HOT, H-O-T. I liked how Libby and Killian didn’t really jump into bed with one another right away and started off as friends because the tension and holding back just helped catapult these scenes into the next stratosphere. Ah.

Takeaway from this book:

When you take care of others, don’t forget to take care of yourself and your own needs. Sometimes letting go is fine, but fight for what you REALLY, TRULY want and it will work out in the end. Determination and motivation are keys to living life because with them, they will take you on a journey you will never forget; they will bring out the true you, the real you.

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